"F*** hair! Doesn´t help you anyway!"

I have seen and heard a lot of different reactions to the fact that I´m losing my hair but none was ever more true (of course this comes from a guy, no girl would eeeever say something like that ;)). I have cancer for chrissakes what do I care about my hair?

Still, it was a memorable moment when I woke up at 5 am Easter Monday and went through my hair and had the first strands of it in my hands. Optimistic as I was I made an appointment with my hairstylist on Saturday, thinking it would at least take a week for all of this beautiful hair to fall off. But once it started it went very quick. Within two days there only was a pathetic rest left (if you want a picture- think Gollum who fell in an unicorn colored paint pot), so I went to Jenny again and let her finish what she so gloriously started barely a week ago.

That´s all that is - a 1.5 litres Ikea ZipBloc!

One thing you learn fast is that there are always two sides to everything. That´s at least what all the "keep your hopes up" postcards say. ;) So, here are my two sides to losing your hair:

Fun things about losing your hair

• get to wear funny wigs and cool bandanas
• no more shaving legs (or anything else for that matter ;))
• no more bad hair days
• smile at people staring, making them feel uncomfortable (that is probably something only I enjoy ;) It´s also funny to go to the smoker´s area and cough very pathetically!)
• way more space in bathroom with all the hair care products gone (who ever knew I had so much!? o0)
• all the money I´ll save from not having to go to hair stylist (I have like a thousand other investment ideas for that :))
• get to do THIS when going to metal party:

It also said "Never regret never surrender" on the front :)

Not so fun things about losing your hair

Remind me to never grow a beard! ;)

• it´s freezing! (have to wear night cap o0)
• headbanging without hair SUCKS!
• need to train a new nervous tick (until now I was putting my hair behind my ears- now I´m instead touching my eyebrows looking like a dork)
• need to buy new earrings, most of my old ones make me look like a drag queen without a wig (I knooow that´s really hard ;))
• need monthly contact lenses, with glasses I look like Walter White
• did I mention it´s f***ing freezing??

And let´s be honest- who wouldn´t want to know how he looks like with a bald head? So, this is me now for everyone who hasn´t seen it yet.

Yep, that´s bald. Deal withit.

And yes, I also have a wig but I somehow don´t feel like wearing it already (you will get picures of it don´t worry ;)). I would feel like hiding something and I sure as hell don´t have to hide anything. So go on and stare if you want to, I will keep smiling back! :)


P.S.: I want to take this blog to thank my best friend Gathi who was there at 5 am when it all started (magically awake, mind connection?), went with me to pick out my wig (can always count on your honest and sometimes cruel advice! ;)) and very patiently painted that awesome skull onto my not-yet-totally-bald-and-therefore-annoying-to-paint head :) I think it took longer to paint it than we were actually on the metal party! XD